As you said that despite of keeping yourself busy, at the end of the day you feel that you are running away from something then I think you should talk to your parents about this. It seems you have faced something very bad in your life that has left this impact on you. I think if is it so then you should come out of those thoughts and this can only be done if you share those things with someone who can understand you. If still you feel the same then I think you should consult to a Psychiatrist who can help you better.

As you said that despite of keeping yourself busy, at the end of the day you feel that you are running away from something then I think you should talk to your parents about this. It seems you have faced something very bad in your life that has left this impact on you. I think if is it so then you should come out of those thoughts and this can only be done if you share those things with someone who can understand you. If still you feel the same then I think you should consult to a Psychiatrist who can help you better.

As you said that despite of keeping yourself busy, at the end of the day you feel that you are running away from something then I think you should talk to your parents about this. It seems you have faced something very bad in your life that has left this impact on you. I think if is it so then you should come out of those thoughts and this can only be done if you share those things with someone who can understand you. If still you feel the same then I think you should consult to a Psychiatrist who can help you better.